One more thing

there are five things
the sounds of the winter band
strumming along to the beat of wind
the sight of the stoic bird
holding fast to the frozen ground
the feel of molded plastic
warming slowly to the touch
the taste of bitter sugar
slowly burning my tongue
but not a single smell
instead a secret thought
that has been a part of me
for a year times five
and when it opens
if feels just like the day
you decided to vanish
as if my heart had been replaced
by the air in my lungs
and perhaps i'm being dramatic
but now there are four things
as the music slowly fades
leaving me in silence
three, as the bird gives up
and carries it's frozen body away
to some better company
two as my hand goes increasingly numb
not that I would ever notice
and my tongue, now dry and empty
leaves only
one more thing
you
the thought of you
the thought of never seeing you again
will haunt me
stay with me
even after everything else has faded away

struggle, falter

struggle, falter
bend, divide
try designing a hateless heart
with shaking hands
rise, bury
perish, survive
shower the world in fire
while announcing your demands
run, crawl
launch, recline
a body in motion
is lost to all time
lay, collapse
rescind, release
never, O never
till I have spoken my peace
listen, speak
retain, reply
it is over now, finished
but i couldn't say why

Circle of Nonsense

Some days I'm happy, and the world is a wonderful
Cause kittens are adorable
And smiles cause euphoria
And chocolate is delicious
And I can hang my head out the car window
But, sometimes I remember the secret thoughts I'm not supposed to have
That everything dies
And the smiles are fake
And chocolate makes you fat
And people are watching and judging
However, nobody likes a downer...so I remind myself
That art is beautiful
And people are noble
And love is grand
And good will always prevail
Then, I laugh...cause those are all lies.
Cause art is meaningless
And all the nobles are dead
And love is a myth
And "good" is just the name of the winning team
Some days I laugh...cause the world is horrible.