Msgs

fingers on home keys
eyes blurred, unfocused
crt buzzing silently
i receive a msg
SN: hope

Hope: You are stronger than you know
Hope: You are loved so much, by so many
Hope: You are worthy of being loved
CH: I am not strong, I cannot bear this
Hope: you are as you think you are
CH: things will never be the same with us
Hope: she still loves you
Hope: you know that

Hope has signed off 8/10/2006 (3:07 pm cst)

learn to hurt

i was hope
puddling in the bottom
of a bucket
now dry
i was smiling eyes
pasted on crooked
gazing upward
above all
i was a heart with no direction
until now
god please help me
i am pointed in the wrong direction
but i cannot change it
i am headed for pain, forever
something i cannot avoid
i would give my life
to make it all better
but i know
no better would it be
i am not strong
i would break if i let go
and inside a note:
' i loved, and i failed'
how can the one thing
you're certain of
be wrong?
how could the heart ever lie?
how do you learn to hurt?